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Chapter 188 : Lost of confidence.

While I was browsing through the internet looking for videos, 
I suddenly thought of the upcoming MSSM tournament. 
I went all sweaty and my heart beat like hell. 

I haven't been practising much lately. 
And I'm so fcking afraid. :\
I keep missing tennis lessons.
And most of them because of scout activities. T_T
I'm not trying to blame scout for this. 
Those decisions were made by me. 
I know I shouldn't regret them, but I do, okay? I really do. 
I don't know what to do now. 

I should have sparred with my brother when he was still in Melaka. 
But now he's not here anymore. -.- 

Regrets regrets regrets.

HAISH. 


@(#*@()#*_@)#*!()@*#(
Someone save meee.
I want to have extra tennis lessons but I don't think mom will agree. 
First of all, I'm busy enough and second of all, individual tennis lessons are expensive shit. 
Normally I'd train with my dad, but now he's not here anymore :( 


Currently under pressure. D: 
What if I lose to a girl who's only 13? 
That'd be the most sia sui-est thing ever. -_- 
I'm losing confidence day by day after what happened in KL.
[losing practically to everyone and having stomachache. -.- ] 
WHAT IF. WHAT IF. T_T 




Haih, this year, I'll just have to see my luck. 
No surprise if I lost to someone who's 13. =-= 
Please don't go and say, 
" Oh EM GEEEEEE How can you lose to her?! " 
Well let me tell you this, 
I DON'T PRACTISE 24/7, SO PLEASE, 
don't ask stupid questions when I lose. =( 


I know I'm saying this like it's the biggest problem of all.
IT IS. 
TO ME. 


Beloved hands, legs, body stamina, tennis racquet and tennis balls, I hope you'd be good to me this year. 
I love you a lot. 
Really. 


Piano, you've all I got now. <3




x 
celine.
never ending regrets. 
:\ 

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