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Chapter 207 : What Other People Say

"What do you wanna become when you grow up? Oh I bet you're gonna be in MMU." 
"So, are you going to stay in Melaka for Form 6? Then you can be with your mom." 


That's what people usually say when they see me. Am I not worthy to go overseas to further my studies? Saying all of these, people, are actually an indirect way of looking down on me. Please, do I look like someone who takes my studies light? To just waste off my parents' hard-earned money so that I could just get into a university and study, and then maybe fail halfway because I can't catch up? I'm not saying MMU or Form 6 isn't good. They're good options. But all I wanna say is, can you people just stop talking about what I'm going to do when I grow up? Do you know what I want? No, you don't. 

I plan to get a scholarship. I don't want to use my parents' money. I want to earn the scholarship myself. The truth is, I plan to study overseas, like in Canada or Australia. But then I realize, they don't give scholarships to places like these. They only provide scholarships to India, Ireland or whatnot. To study in Canada, I'd have to use all the money I have. It's freaking expensive. And yet, some people can't understand that studying there isn't just about the educational problems, it's about financial problems too. YOU probably don't read my blog, but I'm just gonna say that you're very immature for a person your age. You'd rather lock yourself in a room just because your mom doesn't have sufficient money for you to go overseas? What is wrong with you? I bet you spent your parents half their fortune just so you could study what you want. You've wasted all your time changing courses, and wasting money. Yet you spend the money like water. 

I really don't want to be like that. I want to have a good future. You may say it's a little too early for a 15-year-old to say all these, but hey, everyone has a goal. And maybe I would change my opinion on all these when I'm 17, but I assure you that I'd try my very best to achieve what I want. And no, I haven't thought of my career yet. It's much too early. Doctor? I'm scared of blood. Lawyer? I'm not very good at arguing. Engineer? My science isn't good. Pharmacist? Don't think so. Accountant? I'll consider. 






For now, I shall concentrate on my PMR. Which is like, 4 days away. Yet I'm here thinking and ranting about what people think. 



K. I'm going now. 

Bye.







x
Celine. 
Someday I'm going to prove to everyone.




I'm not your typical girl who yearns for pretty dresses and cute boyfriends.


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