Have you ever had the feeling that you're not good enough? Well, for me, most of the time when I'm confident about something (which is quite rarely), I end up looking at what other people have and...yes, dark clouds tower over me and shove me with the harsh truth - YOU'RE JUST NOT GOOD ENOUGH.
For instance, yesterday I was writing up an essay for the Young Writers' Award competition held by Malaysian Works and I was totally confident for it. But when I had a look at what the winners (they are doing it on a rolling basis) wrote, my confident level became zero. Maybe even negative lol. Their essays were SO powerful and the messages they gave out were so deep. Seriously, what am I doing with my life? Like, even if some of their essays were short, but the messages they conveyed were so meaningful. Their essays flowed so smoothly to the point that it would make the readers think that they just randomly whipped up something in half an hour.
By reading their essays, I could earnestly feel that they were greatly affected by it to write out such beautifully-written essays. Seriously though, you should take a look at their essays by searching Malaysian Works on Facebook. Good stuff. Also, everyone aged 25 and below are welcome to send in their analytical essays to win a cash reward of RM250. :) #notanadvertisement
Anyway, I almost didn't email them my essay because hey, my essay was merely child's play and no where near their level of godlike writing. But the moment I don't try is the moment I fail. If I try at least I have a chance, albeit a tiny one, considering all the other amazing writers I'm competing with. Whatever it is, I know I've tried my best! I can take this is as a learning experience to continue improving myself in this field.
How is any of this related to the title you may ask. Well, you can't really compare yourself with everyone else and be bitter, because to each his own. Everyone has gone through something to make them the way they are. Do you think one could wake up one day and suddenly has all the knowledge in the world? No. Knowledge is accumulated bit by bit everyday. Life has no destination; it has always been a process of learning.
So chin up, you're never going to find out who's the best in the world, and as cliche as it sounds, only you can be the best version of yourself. Keep improving and learning, eventually one day you'll get there. Even if you don't, look at how much you've learned to get there? :)
For instance, yesterday I was writing up an essay for the Young Writers' Award competition held by Malaysian Works and I was totally confident for it. But when I had a look at what the winners (they are doing it on a rolling basis) wrote, my confident level became zero. Maybe even negative lol. Their essays were SO powerful and the messages they gave out were so deep. Seriously, what am I doing with my life? Like, even if some of their essays were short, but the messages they conveyed were so meaningful. Their essays flowed so smoothly to the point that it would make the readers think that they just randomly whipped up something in half an hour.
By reading their essays, I could earnestly feel that they were greatly affected by it to write out such beautifully-written essays. Seriously though, you should take a look at their essays by searching Malaysian Works on Facebook. Good stuff. Also, everyone aged 25 and below are welcome to send in their analytical essays to win a cash reward of RM250. :) #notanadvertisement
Anyway, I almost didn't email them my essay because hey, my essay was merely child's play and no where near their level of godlike writing. But the moment I don't try is the moment I fail. If I try at least I have a chance, albeit a tiny one, considering all the other amazing writers I'm competing with. Whatever it is, I know I've tried my best! I can take this is as a learning experience to continue improving myself in this field.
How is any of this related to the title you may ask. Well, you can't really compare yourself with everyone else and be bitter, because to each his own. Everyone has gone through something to make them the way they are. Do you think one could wake up one day and suddenly has all the knowledge in the world? No. Knowledge is accumulated bit by bit everyday. Life has no destination; it has always been a process of learning.
So chin up, you're never going to find out who's the best in the world, and as cliche as it sounds, only you can be the best version of yourself. Keep improving and learning, eventually one day you'll get there. Even if you don't, look at how much you've learned to get there? :)
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Celine
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