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Chapter 302: Care or not to care

Hello. I've been MIA for a whole month hahaha I'm so sorry. Recent updates: Finished TEDx poster, Sports Day poster and sold tonnes of coupons for Charity Drive (okay not tonnes but still) and got recruited into the Tennis Club while I was getting back my momentum on court one day (selections for the team is due in 2 weeks' time).

PT1 is due next week and I really have no idea how I'm going to face it. For now I have zero confidence for all three subjects and basically I'm sending myself to hell hahahahaha. *big breaths* But I'm just going to try anyway.

Anyway, the reason that triggered me into typing this is this one motherfucker who put me down.
I'm not going to type the whole conversation but in short he made a statement like this "Why do you look way different than her?" which implies that I don't look as good as her (someone who has the same name as me). He wasn't even joking lol.

First of all, dude, I just knew you less than an hour ago. Please get your shit together and realize this fact. Why are you acting so casual with me? Who gave you the permission to give such rude statements?

Secondly, I know for a fact she is way better looking than me but looks are not something I can change. I AM BORN INTO THIS BODY. Why the fuck would you be so brainless as to ask such a hurtful question? YOU OK OR NOT DUDE? Honestly I'd rather you say that I'm fat because I CAN do something about it.

Thirdly, I am very very sad not because of his statement but over the fact that I still CARE SO MUCH about what people say about me. Why Celine why???? I keep telling myself that it really means nothing but the more I think about it the more angry I get LOL. My self-esteem became really low suddenly and I kept asking myself if I really look that bad. Sigh.

Okay, this is just for ranting purposes.

I'll be totally fine tomorrow, after a good night's sleep hehe. I'm stronk!







x
Celine 

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