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Chapter 138 : Hari Q? Blasted. ;


Not going for Hari Q I guess. 
Cos' it's dad's Chinese death anniversary. 
I didn't know it until Mom told me a few days ago. 
My mind was all mixed up with different kinds of feelings. 
Lol, I wanna go for Hari Q; I'm curious about all this.
and yes, Sandra told us not to stop halfway. I'm sorry.
I didn't want this to happen either. 
But I can't miss dad's anniversary. It's wrong. 
I hate clashes. 
And what's worst about it? 
It ALWAYS clashes with my scout activities, whether it's a minor or major activity. 
WHY LA. T_T 
I really hate myself for this you know. 
Like that time when the Hong Kong scouts came, I had to go back early because I had piano class.
and that Usaha + Maju camp, had to REACH late because of piano class. =.=

I feel bad, really, really bad. 
I don't want to disappoint all my scout friends and all.
Especially Sandra. ;( 
Whenever I tell her I'm going back early or whatnots, her face expression will change real quick.
I always feel sooo terribly BAD. 
EFFF. 
I've got to tell her on Wednesday I guess..
or maybe through Facebook. 
I don't know. 
It messes me up. 

I wanna die. diediediediedie. 
Why is this happening to me? It's so unfair.
;( 




*this post doesn't deserve a panda. 

celine. 

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