Halo. 心血来潮 so I am here.
Remember when we are all young, and we would dream of becoming successful doctors or lawyers or whatnot? And as we grow up, we find out that it is not that easy after all? So we start changing and changing our ambition to suit our needs? Because we finally know that it is not just about dreaming... It is also about making a move and making a change.
It's the same for how we face people. When we are young, and you expect people to do things for you, that's perfectly normal. Everyone treats you good because you are young, and you can't handle disappointment. Even when you are down, your parents will cheer you up with ice-cream.
But as you grow up, things change. You suddenly realize that the world doesn't revolve around you. You suddenly realize you're not as important as you think you are. Most importantly, you find out that expectations...are always so much brighter than reality.
I guess it's all part of the parcel we receive when we start recognizing that the world isn't as beautiful as it seems after all. Yet I still can't help expecting. I can't help hoping for the best. My mind is telling me to fuck it and just go with the flow but my heart tells me "Hey, you're gonna get through this. I'll give you hope."
That's where the disappointment sinks in. My imagination is always so much prettier than when it's about to happen. Every time before an event I would replay in my mind the different happy things that could happen. And when it really does happen, it just isn't as fascinating anymore. I know, that's when we start to cope and make a change right? Wrong. There's always something in me that doesn't want to give up dreaming.
Because dreaming gives me hope.
But hope also leads to disappointments. And I don't like disappointments.
Sometimes you expect someone to do something for you because you would do the same for him/her too. It's not the other party's fault really. They didn't ask you to pour so much hope in them, did they? No. You were the one playing with your own imagination, hoping they would follow the script you wrote in your mind. And when they don't, you start to get angry with them, when it was your fault all along...
What I'm trying to say here is...keep on dreaming, because dreaming gives us hope, but don't let that spark of hope become so big that it devours your own soul. May the spark grant you to be stronger in life.
Remember when we are all young, and we would dream of becoming successful doctors or lawyers or whatnot? And as we grow up, we find out that it is not that easy after all? So we start changing and changing our ambition to suit our needs? Because we finally know that it is not just about dreaming... It is also about making a move and making a change.
It's the same for how we face people. When we are young, and you expect people to do things for you, that's perfectly normal. Everyone treats you good because you are young, and you can't handle disappointment. Even when you are down, your parents will cheer you up with ice-cream.
But as you grow up, things change. You suddenly realize that the world doesn't revolve around you. You suddenly realize you're not as important as you think you are. Most importantly, you find out that expectations...are always so much brighter than reality.
I guess it's all part of the parcel we receive when we start recognizing that the world isn't as beautiful as it seems after all. Yet I still can't help expecting. I can't help hoping for the best. My mind is telling me to fuck it and just go with the flow but my heart tells me "Hey, you're gonna get through this. I'll give you hope."
That's where the disappointment sinks in. My imagination is always so much prettier than when it's about to happen. Every time before an event I would replay in my mind the different happy things that could happen. And when it really does happen, it just isn't as fascinating anymore. I know, that's when we start to cope and make a change right? Wrong. There's always something in me that doesn't want to give up dreaming.
Because dreaming gives me hope.
But hope also leads to disappointments. And I don't like disappointments.
Sometimes you expect someone to do something for you because you would do the same for him/her too. It's not the other party's fault really. They didn't ask you to pour so much hope in them, did they? No. You were the one playing with your own imagination, hoping they would follow the script you wrote in your mind. And when they don't, you start to get angry with them, when it was your fault all along...
What I'm trying to say here is...keep on dreaming, because dreaming gives us hope, but don't let that spark of hope become so big that it devours your own soul. May the spark grant you to be stronger in life.
x
Celine
By the end of the post... I realize that I am not writing to the readers.
I am writing this to myself.
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