I know. I can't complain because home is just 2 hours away while others are having it worse overseas. And I'd been back last week already, while others have not been back for half a year. I will never know how they feel, but they definitely feel much MUCH worse than I do. So I'm sorry for complaining that I have homesickness, but I DO.
The moment I left the car I could already feel a surge of emotions running through my mind. Dramatic right? But it's true. The feeling got worse when I reached the platform to wait for the bus. Needless to say, by the time I landed my ass on the bus seat, I became damn emo. Lol. Jun Yong asked me why I was emo and I just said that I was sick (partly yeah but mostly because I miss home already). I don't think this feeling will ever end no matter how many times I have to part with Melaka. T_T
I'm not saying that Sunway is bad. Life in Sunway is alright, better than most people I could say. I have to say sorry again to people who are having it worse than me. Some people would be so happy to exchange their lives with me. I know I should be contented. I am. I really am satisfied with my life now, but that doesn't stop me from missing home.
I could forget about missing home when I'm busy. But when the emotions kick in, all I can think of is the need to go home. I notice that I've stopped ranting carelessly on social media, mostly because I feel that I am under so much pressure when I tweet something. What if I tweet something wrong? What if people think I'm stupid? People judge, and I can't stop them from doing so. Don't tell me they don't, because they do, even when they don't reply my tweets. I know, let them judge all they want right? But then ranting publicly also means I'm exposing my weakness to the whole world. (Haha aren't I doing the same now?) The only place I can rant is here, and that's because almost nobody comes here. Even if they do, they're the closest people I know, so I don't mind.
Of course, there is always another option of ranting to your friends, but until what degree? What degree of ranting will they not judge you or make fun of you? You can't rant EVERYTHING to another person and that is a fact. They will either laugh at you for being stupid or tell you that they are having it worse so you should shut the fuck up.
This is why family comes first. Always.
The moment I left the car I could already feel a surge of emotions running through my mind. Dramatic right? But it's true. The feeling got worse when I reached the platform to wait for the bus. Needless to say, by the time I landed my ass on the bus seat, I became damn emo. Lol. Jun Yong asked me why I was emo and I just said that I was sick (partly yeah but mostly because I miss home already). I don't think this feeling will ever end no matter how many times I have to part with Melaka. T_T
I'm not saying that Sunway is bad. Life in Sunway is alright, better than most people I could say. I have to say sorry again to people who are having it worse than me. Some people would be so happy to exchange their lives with me. I know I should be contented. I am. I really am satisfied with my life now, but that doesn't stop me from missing home.
I could forget about missing home when I'm busy. But when the emotions kick in, all I can think of is the need to go home. I notice that I've stopped ranting carelessly on social media, mostly because I feel that I am under so much pressure when I tweet something. What if I tweet something wrong? What if people think I'm stupid? People judge, and I can't stop them from doing so. Don't tell me they don't, because they do, even when they don't reply my tweets. I know, let them judge all they want right? But then ranting publicly also means I'm exposing my weakness to the whole world. (Haha aren't I doing the same now?) The only place I can rant is here, and that's because almost nobody comes here. Even if they do, they're the closest people I know, so I don't mind.
Of course, there is always another option of ranting to your friends, but until what degree? What degree of ranting will they not judge you or make fun of you? You can't rant EVERYTHING to another person and that is a fact. They will either laugh at you for being stupid or tell you that they are having it worse so you should shut the fuck up.
This is why family comes first. Always.
x
Celine
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