Chapter 314: This piece of shit

I have not posted something so raw in my blog before, but here goes nothing. We met on the court, started off as friends, tennis mates, nothing more. It's funny because prior to that, we always missed meeting each other. When I was there, he wasn't, vice versa. A few months later, we started talking to each other more, and the rest, as they say, is history. Side story though - I actually rejected him once because I wasn't sure if I was ready for a relationship, but he persisted on. I'm glad he did.

He is the kind of guy who is witty without even trying, always making me burst out in laughter without fail. He is generous and helpful to everyone, even to strangers. But it's a different story after knowing him HAHAHA no la joking. I'm glad that we have the same interests, and the same kind of humor. We have an imperfect relationship, but he never once raised his voice at me. He taught me that love isn't merely spoken words, it's the actions that make it count. I enjoy the little things he does for me, regardless if it's special or not, especially holding my hand wherever we go. It's just something so trivial but it easily makes my heart so fuzzy and warm.

xxx

When I get hungry during revision, I wouldn't need to move a muscle because he'd already be in Subway buying cookies for me. He'd always, always ask if I'm hungry, just so I wouldn't starve myself (and because he wants to eat as well HAHAHAHA). I have a really bad craving for certain food but he wouldn't hesitate to bring me there to eat. I appreciate our mutual passion for food because then we can have exciting food adventures. So far we have gone for 3 spaghetti buffets; don't ask me how much we ate. He's also one of the reasons why I gained loads of weight...which, I don't know if it's a good or bad thing. No worries, he got fat too.

This is him cutting the sandwich so that it's easier to eat hehehehe.

He made grilled cheese sandwiches for me before tennis.

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During CNY, he insisted on coming down from PJ to Melaka to fetch me back. And also because to say hi to my mom LOL. He said he felt that it's what he's supposed to do. I like how he takes the effort to communicate with my family and friends. Now my family would bring him up whenever they discover new food. "Let's bring Derek here when he comes next time."And sometimes I wonder if my brother misses him more than I do? He constantly asks me when he'll visit us again.

Chah Wei and him are especially close after both of them went to Singapore. CW would keep rubbing it in my face that they went to more places together than with me. Ok lor. *side eye* I'm glad he clicks well with my closed ones. It means the world to me.

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On Valentine's Day, he told me he wouldn't get me flowers. But me being skeptical knew that he would, but kept my expectations low anyway. When we reached Rock, he asked me to get his cable from his bag in the boot, I opened it up and saw beautiful flowers and a box of Ferrero Rocher chocolates. :') I was super super happy because I'd never received flowers before this.

The rest, I'll just let the pictures do the talking (with short captions of course).

Wrapping my racquet grip because he knows I suck at gripping.

He made an effort to join my brother's graduation and my family gathering as well.

Broga trip with this one.

Did I mention he's a really good photographer? 

Maybe too good *rolls eyes*

I cried after my P4 exam because I was so sure I was gonna fail (I didn't). So he held my hand all the way to our dinner place. (John was driving)

I had already planned a trip to Taiwan with JY KS and Kevin earlier last year. I had actually asked him to come fetch us from the airport but he said it was too early. I didn't want to disturb his sleep so I didn't pester on. But on that day itself, when we were eating McDs, he suddenly appeared lololol. I knew he couldn't wait to see me. *Smirks* muahahahahaha.

Penang.

John and I went to Penang to find him. And ya as John would say, I was being a clingy bitch. HAHAHAHA.

 

This looks cute but actually he was trying to push me into the sea lol

 

Love seeing him help me get things done and secretly taking his pic HAHAHA. 

 

He's been there for me for my important milestones. Like bringing me to my first ever job interview, and... first medical checkup? 

 

After tennis. The day before he left for Singapore.

Yep, he's currently working in Singapore. Yep, I'm again, in a long distance relationship. 

Do I feel sad? Hell yeah I do.

All we can do now is have trust and faith that everything will be fine eventually.

And if it's not, then we're probably not meant for each other. 

I honestly don't know what would happen because I know that things change over time.

I know, because I've heard many stories and also experienced it myself. 

It's not going to be easy. But I know what I'm doing. I know who I chose. 

I mentioned to him jokingly that I wanted huge balloons for my graduation, and he actually remembered. On my graduation day itself, he was the one taking care of everything. From queueing up for my graduation family picture to making sure that I had enough to eat. And I think because of that, he didn't manage to get a satisfactory pic of us, although I assured him that he looked just fine. On top of that he and CW had to rush off to catch their bus back to SG. :(

 

I remember what he told me when we just got together.

"你在他那边已经受够了，在这边我一定会保护你。"

I know sometimes I'm not easy to handle but thank you for being patient with me, 

always listening to what I have to say, 

always saying "yes" to whatever places I wanted to go,

and making me believe in us. 

Thank you for being supportive in everything I do.

Thank you, for being everything I ever wanted in a partner.

No thank you for making me fat HAHAHAHA.

I love you so much. 

x

Celine