Dolce Vita ♥

It's 12:44am and I have a lot on my mind. I feel like I haven't been able to give my 100% since the beginning of the year. I'm not entirely sure why but I guess it was because it was fast approaching one of my goals in the firm which was to get promoted to Senior Associate and subsequently tendering afterwards. The plan in my head was solid - I start applying in June, just slightly 2 weeks before the official promotion announcement, I get a call from HR after a week or so, an official interview by the managers after 2 days, and in July I was good to go. Plans always deviate, don't they? In June I find myself still in the midst of peak; whoever said that June was the start of off peak is a liar. However I also found myself avoiding to update my resume; I think a part of me still wanted to stay. I believe it was the comfort zone calling - I have good bosses, my portfolio was okay (I am taking over a job meant for an Assistant Manager), I am familiar with everything that

Hey hey, so let's just jump into it! According to my instagram, my life in 2018 had been pretty...mundane HAHA. But let's take a good look back to the past. 1. My first Jay Chou concert It was SOOOO good. I had literal chills when I was at the National Stadium. Even though we were sat pretty far away from the stage, but the atmosphere was very, very worth it for me already. T___T 2. My first Peak Period You know how we always imagine things to be harder in our heads, and how much worse it could get when it finally happens, but in reality it's not that bad after all? Yep, that's what peak is to me.  I honestly couldn't have asked for a better team to go through this first peak with me. Yes, it was tough. During the first 2 weeks of fieldwork I was questioning my worthiness, whether or not I was up for this job. I had to lead 2 companies (with the help of Jeff) for the first time and I was basically clueless. Everything was so new to me.

Have you ever felt like you're not good enough? That you're not DOING enough? I don't always feel that way. But I do now. So it's the perfect time to jot down everything on my mind now. I'm the type of person who always feels like the world is against me when a lot of shit piles up on me. Sure, they can be solved - but when everything comes at you at once, you just don't really know what to do. My problems are probably minute compared to kids starving in Africa, or people stuck in war. In fact, my problems may not even be called a "problem" at all. I am a very emotional person. I understand that a lot of things are not under my control, and that I shouldn't blame myself for it. But sometimes the burden is just too much to handle - not everyone can understand what you're going through. Even so, other people have demons to fight on their own. They're going through the same, if not worse issues than you. Who are you to even utter a word

In all honesty, I have forgotten how much I loved blogging, or even writing in general (other than audit documentation... totally different things.), so much so that I nearly forgot the URL of my blog. I keyed in xdolcevita and got a shock of my life when I saw that it isn't mine. LOL. I thought my life's work was gone. I had to calm the fuck down and in the end I managed to remember the CORRECT URL. And that is why I am here. It's almost the end of July now, can you believe that? I can't say that my life has changed drastically. It's more or less the same. Boring and mostly routined. I guess that's what work does to you. But off peak always makes me excited because of the events happening. I definitely picked the right time to start working HAHAHAH. Speaking of work (probably all I can update for now), I have worked for almost a year now, but I still feel like I haven't learnt a lot??? It's weird. I'd really like to take on the senior role but

I know I haven't been diligent in updating this space even though there were times that I wish I did when I had something on my mind. Year end reviews have been something I do on a yearly basis so I don't wanna leave this out for 2017! I'll just merge this together with my life updates in this post. And as usual, I'm gonna use my instagram as a guide wtf I'm that lazy. 1. I Graduated and Became an ACCA Affiliate *Please bear with the super low quality pic I regret not bringing my DSLR okay?? This is something I feel extremely lucky about. Anything could have happened to my last paper. And I was intimidated from the stories I heard about failing ACCA, sometimes more than once. I took the leap of faith and just did it, at the same time giving room to myself for maximum 1 failure attempt. I can't believe I completed it without any failures, something I owe it to my lecturers, family and friends. I know it's not the end, and I have so many more things

I have not posted something so raw in my blog before, but here goes nothing. We met on the court, started off as friends, tennis mates, nothing more. It's funny because prior to that, we always missed meeting each other. When I was there, he wasn't, vice versa. A few months later, we started talking to each other more, and the rest, as they say, is history. Side story though - I actually rejected him once because I wasn't sure if I was ready for a relationship, but he persisted on. I'm glad he did. He is the kind of guy who is witty without even trying, always making me burst out in laughter without fail. He is generous and helpful to everyone, even to strangers. But it's a different story after knowing him HAHAHA no la joking. I'm glad that we have the same interests, and the same kind of humor. We have an imperfect relationship, but he never once raised his voice at me. He taught me that love isn't merely spoken words, it's the actions that make