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Chapter 309: Adaptability

Hi guys! So far 2017 has been great, despite struggling with keeping up with my studies HAHAHA fml. I've been to a lot of places and eaten a lot of food, what more can I ask for? Hehehe. However the weather has been cranky recently so I haven't really got the chance to play tennis as I wish.

This topic just came to me this morning and I thought that I should address it. Honestly I've never really realized my own adaptability until my brother mentioned it to me.

Adaptability, according to Dictionary.com, is "able to adjust oneself readily to different conditions". For me, adaptability means being able to accept change, and facing that change with a newfound perspective. It means being able to make something unfamiliar into something habitual. 

I, for one, dislike changes. I hate last minute changes, especially when it's about food HAHAHA. It's the expectations and anticipations building up that makes me furious when someone changes plans. But I've been better at handling that sort of shit now, though I'm still a bit annoyed about it. Okay, I digress.

The example I mentioned above is more of a short-term change rather than a long-term one, so it doesn't really provide a huge impact right? The only impact it makes is that I get irritated af end of story lmao. I've always been afraid of changes. Because what if? What if the change doesn't bring any good? What if I won't ever get used to it? Nah, that won't ever happen. Because you will get used to it. It will become second nature without you even realizing, and it'll be a great feeling.

It's more of a challenge to your mental ability compared to anything else. Adapting to changes isn't easy at all. Sometimes, no matter how much you want to adapt to it, you just can't seem to bring yourself to it. It's like trying to blend in with a bunch of people that you can't click with, and you're just there forcing yourself to be one of them even though you know that you can't. The best lesson I've learnt is that to take things slowly, and to allow time to do its work. Slowly, but surely, things will fall into place. Your adaptability will improve too, because you're accepting the fact that you can't force things to go the way you want it to.

That's one way to face changes. Another pessimistic situation is unable to accept the change. The fact that you refuse to accept change already reflects what kind of mindset you have. If you can't bring yourself to embrace the change, you're going to be stuck on that same page forever. You won't be able to move forward, because you're always idle in your comfort zone, afraid of what's going to happen outside. The first step to adapt, is to accept what is out of your control.

When I first came to Sunway, I couldn't really adapt properly. Everything just wasn't right. I was missing home very badly, and everyday I just counted down to the day that I'm able to get home. I couldn't really blend in with the people around me. I disliked most of them because I didn't like how they're so different from me. Lunch time was always awkward. My grades were not as good as I wanted it to (Actually, they were really quite impressive compared to what I am achieving now HAHAHAHAHAHA ungrateful piece of shit. I remember getting 82 and being depressed about it. Wut.) I didn't really get much exercise. I cried a lot. LOL. Okay I didn't expect it to be so bad until I typed everything out.

After a while, I stopped relying on the countdown app on my phone. I went out more often. I made friends with people who are similar to me in terms of our humour and speech. I stopped trying to fit into unsuitable cliques. I tried to enjoy myself more. And despite having a few obstacles here and there, I can safely say that I'm having a great time here. I still miss home though, but not as bad as last time.

You see, everything takes time. And until now, I'm still adapting. I'm still trying to accept the changes around me. I'm not trying to preach anything, probably just a reminder to myself in the future. There's going to be another huge change coming in July and to be honest I don't know what to expect. My senior said to not overthink because everything will fall into place eventually. I'm probably not going to end up where I want to be initially but I guess that's fine too. Because I believe everything happens because it needs to.

Sometimes things aren't in our control, but maybe it's supposed to happen to prep yourself for bigger things in the future. It's always risky, but sometimes you just need to take a leap of faith.


x
Celine

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