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Chapter 316: Abandoned Space

In all honesty, I have forgotten how much I loved blogging, or even writing in general (other than audit documentation... totally different things.), so much so that I nearly forgot the URL of my blog. I keyed in xdolcevita and got a shock of my life when I saw that it isn't mine. LOL. I thought my life's work was gone. I had to calm the fuck down and in the end I managed to remember the CORRECT URL. And that is why I am here.

It's almost the end of July now, can you believe that?

I can't say that my life has changed drastically. It's more or less the same. Boring and mostly routined. I guess that's what work does to you. But off peak always makes me excited because of the events happening. I definitely picked the right time to start working HAHAHAH.

Speaking of work (probably all I can update for now), I have worked for almost a year now, but I still feel like I haven't learnt a lot??? It's weird. I'd really like to take on the senior role but I'm not sure if I'm capable of doing so. I'm a second year associate but I would be leading engagements from now on to prepare myself to be senior associate. How time flies.

Peak Period 
My first ever peak period - what can I say? It was exhausting both physically and mentally; mostly mentally though. But I felt that my peak was easier than most people. Yes I was in charge of 2 companies, but my senior-in-charge (SIC) was there to guide me through it. I also had a really good intern - who is also one of my good friends till now because we went through so much together. I really appreciate her because without her, I don't think I could've survived peak. I wouldn't say that the engagement was demanding. The audit procedures were quite straightforward. Our manager was willing to coach us as well. All I can say is that I'm very lucky to have this team. I never did get scolded. It was a much better experience than what I had expected. Yes, we had to endure sleepless nights, but those only lasted at most a few weeks. I thought we had to OT for months. The closing out of the audit work was the most satisfying for me. WE WERE FINALLY DONEEEE. No not really. We are already preparing for upcoming 2018 audit. It's a never ending cycle. But at least I know I'm in good hands.

Interdepartment Games (IDG) 
Last year, I only managed to join IAFG. This year, the ball was on me for IDG because I was assigned to be Captain. I was stressed to the max because we were defending champions for 2 consecutive years but I felt we couldn't defend ourselves this year. We didn't have enough guy players this time. I had to beg for people to join (yes that's how low I went). And our opponents had state players on their team. We did too, but we were rusty and in dire need of practice. I thought about it for days and how were gonna fuck ourselves up during game day lolol. I also couldn't make it initially because I was in Bangkok and was supposed to come back on the game day itself, but it rained and the match was postponed to the next day. Hallelujah. In the end? We managed to pull through as defending champions for the third year in a row! 


Transition from AA2 to AA1
Even before I got promoted to AA1, my manager has already informed me that there would be higher expectations on me as I was supposed to be more experienced. And since I am lucky enough to have seniors who are willing to impart their knowledge to me, she expected me to perform above expectations. I believe that it was a warning for me to buck up and stop being a lil shit lmao. There is definitely more pressure being a second year associate, but challenges are great and it really evolves you into something you thought you'd never be. Sometimes when you're pushed to the limit, it surprises you how much you can achieve in that short amount of time.

In conclusion, I'm content with my life right now, to develop myself, to be able to still keep my hobby while also representing the firm, to have enough money to do what I want, to plan and travel to wherever I want. Sure, adulting isn't easy, but you have a freedom of choice to do what you want in life.



x
Celine

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