Emo :'((( ;

I'm going to smile like nothing's wrong,

talk like everything's perfect,

act like it's all a dream,

and pretend it's not hurting me.

What's wrong with me?
Nothing. Perfectly nothing.
I'm fine.
Don't question me.

***“少年不识愁滋味，为赋新词强说愁”***

I know. I'm trying to forget everything that had happened.

I'm just gonna sleep and get up smiling like I used to.

Say whatever you want, say something like,

" wtf this girl, so young then act like sad sad ..damn stupid sial " ( i'm not acting. and I ain't a good actor. )

or

" =.=" like that also wanna write out. waste space nia. " ( it's not your blog, it's mine. )

or

" emo emo..everyday emo only. beh tahan " ( beh tahan then don't come here. )

Whatever ok. I just write it out because I'd feel better. Not to get more readers.

Panda, save me, will you?

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