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Chapter 206 : I can be tough.

I can be strong. 
But with you, it's not like that at all. ♥


Ha. I doubt anyone comes here anymore, but I don't care. 

This is my haven. 

So, I think I should be more careful with my words. 

I constantly curse and swear (Lol. Should reduce it.) when I'm in a bad mood or when someone pisses me off. 

It's a bad habit. But, you don't expect me to bury it all inside, right?

I release my anger and disappointment by ranting non-stop. 

It's annoying. I know. And it disturbs the people around me. 

Well, I'm trying to change. But on the other hand, I don't want to. 

Why must I always work so freaking hard to please everyone?

And in the end, I'm the one who's not happy.

I'm the one who's always angry. 

What to do? This is life. 

I hate life. And yet, I try my best to enjoy it, no matter what. 

Lol. Not try my best laah actually. Sometimes, I really do enjoy it. 

Disappointments are unavoidable, but it always depends on how you handle it. 

How you accept it. 



Why are there obstacles in life? 

To make you a better person. 

To improve yourself.

To learn more. 

To learn how to accept failures and be happy.

To gain more knowledge. 

That's what I think to myself whenever I'm down.

We're always yearning for more, and we're always unhappy with what we have now.

I just have to say, LIVE YOUR LIFE AS IT IS. BUT ALSO YEARN MORE, TO GAIN MORE.

Yearning isn't a bad thing. It actually improves oneself to go forward, to work harder. 

Nevertheless, try your best, and everything will be fine. ♥ 




Be yourself, live your life, and have fun. ♥ 

















P.s. : I don't bite. I don't get why people are so scared of me. Please lah, I can take a joke okay? Just don't cross the damned line. 








x
Celine (: 
She will never forget you,
no matter how much she wants to. ♥ 
You may not know it,
but she's dying inside. 

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