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Chapter 249: IT'S TOMORROW!



GUYS IT'S TOMORROW. The truth shall be revealed...sigh. I know, I know. SPM isn't everything, blablabla. But hey, we worked hard for it, right? We deserve at least something. Don't tell me SPM is nothing. IT IS SOMETHING, but not everything. I'd be okay with 10As and 1B, I think. I THINK. LOL. There is no guarantee that I won't cry once my name isn't called by the principal. You see, only straight As students get called up to the stage. The ones who missed an A or two, are required to collect them from the form teachers.

I think I know what to expect, so I won't be so disappointed. If I do get 2Bs though, I will cry. Not because I am smart or in the first class, it's because I have high expectations and aims for myself. Different people have different aims. Some people aim for straight A+. Some people aim for straight As. And maybe some people just want to pass all their subjects. No discrimination though. These are facts. So we can't possibly blame those who aim higher or lower than us. For me, of course I'd want straight As. It would be great if I got an A- for Chinese, but if not, then I'd know where I stand.

When I woke up today (11am lol), I logged in to Facebook and immediately saw Kumar's post in the 5S1 group. He stated that Dev had scored straight A+. He posted it at 9am in the morning -____- I had a few doubts whether or not it was true because wth does the jabatan wake people up so early in the morning?! Later in the day I was told that it was fake news, though I hope that it's true. :|  Since last year, nobody scored that godly result. For 2011 candidates, they had 3. Smartasses. Lolol. I don't know what to expect actually. I'm ready for the worst to come, but hoping for the best. This is my last major government examination.

People on twitter have been ranting like crazy already hahaha. To be honest...I am afraid of my results not because I'm scared I can't get into college. It's because of my ego. I believe most people are like this. Part of it is also because I don't want to disappoint my parents and relatives and whatnot. But mostly my ego. I don't want people to judge me because I'm in Sc1 and I'm supposed to get straight As. I don't want them to judge me because I'm a teacher's daughter and I should get excellent results. I don't want my relatives to say bad things behind my back. Sigh. I know that's impossible, because they definitely will. And most of all, I don't want to be left out. I don't want to be the only stupid one not getting good results while my other friends score with flying colours. And wouldn't it be awkward when they try not to be too happy, just for you?

I hope I won't be too disappointed with my results. I hope that I will smile when I receive it. And I hope for the same for everyone else. Cheers.







x
Celine





You'll do great, for sure. :) ♥

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