Hi. I've officially reached the climax of boredom. What's worse is that there's so many things to worry about. I know, I know. Worrying isn't helping anything anyway, so why bother? SPM results are going to be announced 1 week from this day. Nervous? Anxious? Of course. I am totally going to freak out next Wednesday lol, but not now. Sigh. I had a dream 2 days ago that I had a B for Chinese an a C for Accounts. Can you believe that?! C for Accounts T___T Yes I can accept B for Chinese (I suck, I really do.) but please, no C for Accounts please. There are lot more subjects I am so terrified about. What if the result slip is nothing like what I expect? There are so many "What ifs", but so little that we can do to change it. I feel that I've not given my best in the exam but then what can I do? Break in to the Jabatan and change my answers? What's done is done. I'm not going to expect much for my results, because I know it probably wouldn't be what I want. "Expect the worst, but Hope for the best." is what I believe in now.
During UPSR result day, I expected too much...And so it hit me like a tidal wave. I cried when I saw a big fat B on my result. Hahaha. 6As and 1B for BM Penulisan. I felt ashamed because all my friends around me scored straight As. Assholes. LOLOLOL. For PMR, I dunno, I was worried about Chinese. I was worried because my mom was our Chinese teacher, and of course everyone expects her daughter to get an A right? Yeah, that helped with the pressure. In the end, I did get an A. I scored straight As for the first time in my life. I felt so triumphant. I can't say I didn't expect much. I did. Maybe not as much as I did when I was 12, but I did.
So for this last major exam in my schooling life...I honestly don't know what to expect and what to NOT expect... Sigh. I have a feeling I'm going to cry real badly though. Hahaha. Maybe not because of the results? Maybe because of the fact that I won't be have this kind of massive gathering with these awesome people again? Or maybe because I am going to be a college student in about a few days' time after collecting my result? I don't know. There are so many mixed feelings. And I don't know what to feel.
I am going to college on the 22nd of March, which is next Saturday. I am going to start my new life there. Orientation Day would be on the 25th. New people, new books, new bed... I am definitely going to miss Melaka. And my old friends. All of you will not be forgotten, I can assure you that. And to think that I was soooo looking forward to college just a month ago. The feeling is different now. But I guess it's like the first day of Primary School, the first day of High School. It's not going to be that bad, I hope.
3 months have gone by so fast. And in just 9 more days I am going to college. Woah. I'm just leaving to KL which is like a 2-hour drive from here, but then I feel that I'm leaving so many things behind? Or am I just being super emotional. :( I am not even leaving the country gosh. I can even come back to Melaka whenever I want. Sigh. Maybe I'll be all right after a while. Heh.
Received an advice from an old friend of mine: "Don't be overconfident. Don't rush." after he read my blog post weeks ago. Thanks. College will be very different from high school and I should know that. Of course, I've chosen this path, and there's no backing out now. So what's left to do is look forward. There are still so many obstacles in front of me, some might be impossible to achieve, but like I said, I'm hoping for the best. It would be a lie to say that I have utmost confidence in myself to pass my course smoothly, but I will try my best. It's time for a change in attitude I guess? I can't be sluggish in my studies anymore. I have to push myself. I know, all of these are useless if they are just talk and no work. So let's just wait and see then.
All the best, Celine Tan Li Wen. If anyone can do it, you can do it too. :)
I have a feeling I'm going to regret saying all this when I enter college. HAHAHAHAHAH. Sigh. Always azam baru one lah... Typical Malaysians. lololol.
Then again, someone nice please motivate me to study when I say I'm lazy. Please. I will treat you lunch. Or dinner. Or supper. 8D
Good luck to you too. <3 nbsp="">
During UPSR result day, I expected too much...And so it hit me like a tidal wave. I cried when I saw a big fat B on my result. Hahaha. 6As and 1B for BM Penulisan. I felt ashamed because all my friends around me scored straight As. Assholes. LOLOLOL. For PMR, I dunno, I was worried about Chinese. I was worried because my mom was our Chinese teacher, and of course everyone expects her daughter to get an A right? Yeah, that helped with the pressure. In the end, I did get an A. I scored straight As for the first time in my life. I felt so triumphant. I can't say I didn't expect much. I did. Maybe not as much as I did when I was 12, but I did.
So for this last major exam in my schooling life...I honestly don't know what to expect and what to NOT expect... Sigh. I have a feeling I'm going to cry real badly though. Hahaha. Maybe not because of the results? Maybe because of the fact that I won't be have this kind of massive gathering with these awesome people again? Or maybe because I am going to be a college student in about a few days' time after collecting my result? I don't know. There are so many mixed feelings. And I don't know what to feel.
I am going to college on the 22nd of March, which is next Saturday. I am going to start my new life there. Orientation Day would be on the 25th. New people, new books, new bed... I am definitely going to miss Melaka. And my old friends. All of you will not be forgotten, I can assure you that. And to think that I was soooo looking forward to college just a month ago. The feeling is different now. But I guess it's like the first day of Primary School, the first day of High School. It's not going to be that bad, I hope.
3 months have gone by so fast. And in just 9 more days I am going to college. Woah. I'm just leaving to KL which is like a 2-hour drive from here, but then I feel that I'm leaving so many things behind? Or am I just being super emotional. :( I am not even leaving the country gosh. I can even come back to Melaka whenever I want. Sigh. Maybe I'll be all right after a while. Heh.
Received an advice from an old friend of mine: "Don't be overconfident. Don't rush." after he read my blog post weeks ago. Thanks. College will be very different from high school and I should know that. Of course, I've chosen this path, and there's no backing out now. So what's left to do is look forward. There are still so many obstacles in front of me, some might be impossible to achieve, but like I said, I'm hoping for the best. It would be a lie to say that I have utmost confidence in myself to pass my course smoothly, but I will try my best. It's time for a change in attitude I guess? I can't be sluggish in my studies anymore. I have to push myself. I know, all of these are useless if they are just talk and no work. So let's just wait and see then.
All the best, Celine Tan Li Wen. If anyone can do it, you can do it too. :)
I have a feeling I'm going to regret saying all this when I enter college. HAHAHAHAHAH. Sigh. Always azam baru one lah... Typical Malaysians. lololol.
Then again, someone nice please motivate me to study when I say I'm lazy. Please. I will treat you lunch. Or dinner. Or supper. 8D
x
Celine
Good luck to you too. <3 nbsp="">
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