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Chapter 256: Appreciating

Hi just in case you thought I have officially abandoned my blog for the sake of college, bla bla *inserts every single thing that has nothing to do with my life*, I'd like to tell you NO. I didn't manage to update because I had nothing to say and I couldn't fork out anything interesting in my life to blog. /cues sad music/ And since today is my off-day, I suddenly thought of something I wanted to blog for some time now but I always chucked it aside.

Look out the window (if you have no window, sucks to be you lololol im kidding.) and see the sun rays shining upon the trees and buildings. Watch the trees sway to the wind. You might think that these are not significant things in life but they actually are. You might curse the sun for being so undeniably scorching hot everyday you walk down the road, but what happens when it's raining? You curse at the rain as you remembered that you left your umbrella at home. Then, you want the sun back. People are selfish. They tend to yearn for something they do not get, or don't deserve to. Which brings me to my topic of the day. Appreciating.

It's true that people tend to notice the importance of something when they lose it. Screw the "People say “you don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone”. Truth is, you knew what you had… you just never thought you’d lose it." phrase seriously. If you really think that way, then screw you. It only means you were taking it for granted. And taking people or things for granted is such a sick and twisted thing to do. Nobody owes you anything, and nothing is yours forever.

So why not learning how to appreciate? Appreciate your parents' love, the people around you, the things they do for you by choice - and not by force, and your life. You didn't get what you like? Screw that. You deserve better. Appreciate what you have now. You didn't manage to score well in your first test? Screw it. You can definitely do better the next time round if you start putting in effort. Appreciate your marks, they let you know how much you need to work on. And also, you could be worse, some people might even be envious of your marks. Someone important decides to break ties with you? Screw him/her. You don't deserve people who give up on you easily. As ironic as it sounds, all this will help you appreciate more.

Like I said, the world doesn't owe you anything. Instead, YOU play an important role on this earth. People walk into your life willingly. And they decide to stay by choice. You don't pay them money to stay. And when people turn you down, don't rant or complain about the things they didn't do for you, instead think of everything else they did for you. Learn how to appreciate people's deeds and you will be happier.

And when you're down and sad because of a certain situation you're in, sure, you deserve the right to be frustrated and depressed. But don't let that sink you for a long time, because you also deserve the right to stand back up and be stronger than ever. You're tougher than you think. You're okay. You can do this. Life's a bitch sometimes but hey, you're way more than that.

Appreciate whatever you have now. Appreciate everything. I guess, as cliche as it is, everything in life is fated this way. So start appreciating. Be grateful of your life your parents gave you. Complaining and ranting is completely normal. Once you're finish with that, start opening your eyes and appreciate better things in life rather than lingering in that emotionally miserable bubble of yours. Always smile! Be happy. Influence people with positive vibes and you will live a happier life.



This goes out to everyone who is having a hard time now coping with an emotional roller coaster ride of what we call Life. And...this is also to myself. Whether or not to my past, my present or my future.




Eternally grateful for the sun, the rain, and you.




x
Celine


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