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Chapter 140 : Wth 


This week has been like shit. 
I don't know what to say. 
I feel lonelyyyy. Like no one's gonna be there for me when I fall. 
Only Nigahiga makes me smile when I'm down. 
But too bad, I've seen almost all his videos.
What? I know what you're thinking. 
In school, I laugh like nobody's business. 
Well, just wanna say this :

A true friend sees the pain in your eyes while everyone believes that fake smile. 


Yes, I took it from fb, but so what? It's true. 
Forgive my emo-ness. 
I just found out that I'm pretty much alike with my brother. 
When we're at home, we're like so damn emo right? 
But when we see those crazy friends of ours, we just forget all those stuff that's burdening us and just laugh away with them. 
I like that. :( 

That's why once we get back home, we'd get online and start chatting with friends.
But too bad lah, some friends just don't appreciate my existence. 
Just fyi, I don't need your acquaintance anymore. See if I care. -_- 
....I do. I DO CARE. SO CAN YOU JUST PLEASE REPLY ME OR SOMETHING. 
Nvm, I don't blame you. I admit that I'm rather annoying sometimes. 

Sorry. 

Sorry to those whom I've offended.
Sorry to those whom I shout at constantly.
Sorry to those whom I've ignored occasionally. 
Sorry to those whom I've annoyed every single time.
Sorry to those whom I tease sometimes. 
Sorry to those whom I've made you cried.
Sorry to those whom I've scolded.
Sorry. I really am. 
And no, I didn't fight with anyone.
I just feel sorry to those people above. 


Thank you.
Thank you for those who've helped me get through the tough times. 
Thank you for those who've cheered me up.
Thank you for those who've criticized me to make me be a better person.
Thank you haters for making me a stronger person.
Thank you, special person, for... nothing. ( wait no, why am i thanking you? you suck. just kidding, but seriously. ) 


To those busybody/nosy/kepochi people : 
You barely talk to me and now you're asking me what's wrong?
Well what is wrong with YOU? Don't be nosy kaay. 
I have my own life. Some things are meant to be kept private; you expect me to say it publicly around Facebook? Go to hell lah. 
You wanna know who my crush is? IN YOUR DREAMS. 
Because all your freakin' guesses are wrong. 
It's not who you think it is. = = 
Lastly, fck off will ya? 



URGH.
I hate it when nobody's online. = =" 


xoxo-
celine.
you still do come to my blog, right?
I hope so. 



butt out of my life, dude.

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