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Chapter 143 : Stressed up. ; 


Have you ever been really, really stressed up till you wanna just kill yourself? 
Of course you have, right?
Right, I just wanna say that this year has been... tight for me. 
Things aren't going well - Not the way I wanted, at least. 
and I thought I'd be really free after July. Guess I was wrong. 
More work are coming. 
And what's the worst thing? I'm addicted to Facebook & Plants Vs. Zombies.
YEP, great. Just great. 
OOOOOH, the second worst thing, I'm getting these crazy mood swings these days. -.-


To-Do List for August - September ( I think. ) 
* It is not in order. Things on my list are ALL important.* 
1.  Grd 4 Piano Examination ( which will be finished by Tuesday~ and that's a good thing. :D ) 
2.  Geography Folio ( which...erm, is urgently needed but haven't even done half of it. :P ) 
3.  Scout Board ( which is.. on my list, is quite important. XD ) 
4.  STUDYING FOR THE UP COMING UJIAN SELARAS 2 ( which is equally important to the other school examinations, or so they say. (:  ) 
5.  Finish "Eldest" by next week. ( to me, yes it's important. In fact, it's KINDA REALLY important. XD ) 

Ahahaha. 
If I don't do well in the piano exam, my teacher will be upset; 
if I don't do well in my Geography Folio, I'll mempersiasuikan my Mom; 
if I don't decorate the board properly, the Top Board'll be upset (?) ; 
if I don't study for the exam, my Mom will upset, continued by..well, me.; 
if I don't finish my book by next week, err...I'LL BE UPSET! 


For my piano exam, my examiner will be a rather fat plump guy. 
Some says he's strict; some says he's emo got a bad temper. 
ME? I SAY HE'S...fat. *he can't even fit through door* LOL. Just kidding. ( Niga Higa @ Skitzo - Despicable Me ) 
Our music school lah, kena the fat guy for what. 
Bukit Beruang's music school got the kind and friendly and lenient ( must be lah ) lady examiner. T_T 
I'm jealous, angry and disappointed at the same time. 
Oh, and afraid; afraid that he might throw his chair at me because he can't stand my playing. @_@ 
Well let's just pray that THAT doesn't happen to me. 
On the other hand, I would really love to meet this fat, strict and emo hot-tempered guy. :D 
I'm SO GONNA PISS HIM OFF! 
yeah right. 

Today's scout perjumpaan was okay. 
Nee Yen and I actually commanded for the first time in our lives? 
It's a weird sensation. (: 



One more thing, people ain't blogging these days! 
PSSHH, HELLO PEOPLE?! 
I am DYING to see your latest update. 
UPDATE MORE! 
For me, I actually think I should update less. :\ 





xoxo-
celine. ♥ misery


The term " fat, strict and emo " is SO gonna haunt me for the rest of my piano examinations. LOL. 

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