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Chapter 129 : And so my hair is now gone. p.s. : I'm a failure. ; 



Mind you, I did not cut off my WHOLE head of hair. 
Yeah. So what I was tryina say was.. uhm. 
I CUT MY HAIR! LOL. Finally. 
Despite having a massive amount of hair cut off, I still look the same. -__-
Except my fringe looks completely retarded in a really weird way. :D 
That is when I tie my hair up. :s
The holidays are about to end. 
Some people are happy ( surprisingly. lol. these people must be nerds. :D ) 
and some people are not ( like me. ). 
I need more holidays! 
GIVE ME 3 MONTHS AND I'M HAPPY ALREADY. I'LL DO ANYTHING YOU WANT! ;( 

Yes, I am that desperate, thank you very much.


So, there's this Campfire in Seri Kota on the 26th of June. 
I feel like going. d: 
But guess what my mom said when I told her? 

No need to go lah. Waste time. 


I've only been to 1 campfire! WHEN I WAS 13. ( don't get me started on Ludacris' rap. )
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The speech and drama exam is on Friday, which leaves me TWO days of preparation. 
Guess what? 
I'm not ready. -.- 
I can seriously do my part if there wasn't anyone else in the room.
ONE PERSON MAKES A BIG DIFFERENCE OKAY? 
I don't know. In class, I can't speak anything. 
AT HOME, I memorize my script like a river flow and my expressions are like WAY, WAY better than what I do in class. No kidding. 


Skip the exam part. 



School's reopening soon and I am so dead. 
Our test papers are going to be given back and I don't wanna see my results. 
I know I can't take my training to be an excuse.
I should've studied earlier, just like my mom said.
Now I'm regretting like hell. 
" Too late Celine. You're a goner now. " I can hear the little voice at the back of my head saying that to me. D: 

Gosh. I fail in everything I do.



Tennis, Piano, STUDIES. Wtf. &*%$#@! 

I can't even win a match during MSSM. The best I got was 4-6, 4-6. == 
I can't even get a distinction in piano. The best I can go is MERIT. Plus it's LOW MERIT. -.-
I can't even be in the Top 15. Much less a Top 10.
I can't help but think of myself as a failure to life. 


Well, despite all those, 
I'm secretly hoping that someone would tell me that I am at least talented in something. =(




xoxo-
celine. epic fail. 



I go high and I go low. 
Today, I go low. Very low. 

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