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Chapter 245: Insecurities and judgmental creeps

I didn't want to post this up. And this post isn't directed to anyone. I wrote this in general and just according to my own thoughts. Don't take it too seriously.

Everyone has insecurities right?

So yeah. A girl may be insecure about a lot of things. Like, her face, her pimples, her body, her shoe size and whatnot. It's all pretty normal. A guy is also about the same. Low self esteem and such.

One thing though. When people criticize you, and just coincidentally stepped on one of your many insecurities, you'll feel really shitty right? Like seriously, we only care about people's criticism if we initially felt insecure already. This is from my observation. Maybe it's different for other people.

Some people like to joke. But has it occurred to you that other people don't think it's a joke? Has it occurred to you that you have indirectly hurt the other person without knowing shit?????? Some people should get a grip when it comes to "jokes" man.

The insecurities are like wounds, wounds that are self inflicted by oneself. Then once another person steps on it, the wound gets bigger, therefore you get more insecure about yourself. I'm not saying that we should ask the person what insecurities they have in case you step on them. That's just weird lol.

Observe. Just freaking observe. Observe with your damn eyes.

If the person starts looking uncomfortable or tries to use a laugh to cover it up, then just shut up bitch. Don't care if it's just a joke or what. You can't take back what you say but you can control what you're gonna say next.
Some people are so retarded I swear. They just don't bother about your feelings and blabber about your insecurities to make people laugh. Hello? Earth to asshole? Don't think you're so great. You're stepping on people's insecurities just to "have a good laugh"? What shit? Then when people do the same thing to you, you suddenly become so angry?

Which brings me to my next point. Judgmental creeps.

Judging. In all truthfulness, we are all judgmental hypocrites. It's just that there are different levels. Don't lie and say that you HAVE NEVER judged anyone. Pssht.

At least when you're judging, please make sure you don't give out contradicting statements. For example, when you see a not-so-good-looking-girl on facebook, you go

"Walao. This girl damn ugly weh. Why is she on facebook????" 

Then the next day, the girl puts on contacts and makeup, become damn chio already.

"Walao. She damn chio already weh. But her face is caked with makeup leh??? Then why her eyes so blue one? Unnatural sia! Copy people act chio!" 

Bitch please. You want pure natural ah? Can you get a reality check please.

Of course everyone loves the naturally chio girls (the ones without makeup and contacts and still look awesome chio). Then when a girl puts on makeup and contacts, they suddenly become "unnatural". Ok lor, you win liao lor. Everything you say is correct. Come I clap hands for you okay?

People not chio, you judge. People try to be chio, you also judge. Fts lah don't want to live anymore. *flips table* Really don't understand people's views.

Another thing I damn irritated about is people picking out tiny flaws of mine just to satisfy their laughing needs. YES LAH I CARE ABOUT MY FLAWS SO CAN YOU NOT PURPOSELY STATE IT OUT AH WALAO IRRITATING BASTARD SIA I HOPE YOU ROLL INTO A BARREL FULL OF POISONOUS SNAKES AND SPIDERS AND THEN FALL INTO A VOLCANO WHICH IS ABOUT TO ERUPT. DIE BITCH DIE.

Okay. I shall chill. Yes I like to type out long sentences in caps lock to emphasize.

Pick out people's flaws and anyhow bombard people wtf is wrong with you man?

Sigh.



Okay rant is over.


Go ahead and judge me silently I don't mind k bai.



x
Celine









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